Its been a long time, I havent been very good at updatinf regularly, like all my other sites as well, oh well.
I doubt anyone really reads this anyway haha.
My sister’s getting married next year, sheesh, she’s still like a child to me, just that she now operates an automobile, and whenever she does, my life is in her hands.
Its hard to grasp hold of the fact that we’re no longer children anymore, and we’re making life decisions. It used to be such an adult thing that “we” children stay out of it. Now, we’re in it.
Soon, its gonna be my turn. I’m also getting married, have kids, have everything I need in life and then retire to enjoy my golden years.
Alot of times, i think, is that all to me? Is that all i’m gonna have? Can I have more?
And I realised that alot of times, we’re just too greedy. I am too greedy. There are things to appreciate around me which I havent and I, from now, will give attention to things around me which I have neglected.
My chinchilla. How many times have I just fed her, gave her water, a few scratches and walked away?
How many times have I accompanied her, just sit beside her and let her run free?
I havent been a good owner, and now she isnt eating much, I dont know if its old age or she’s having some sickness because prey animals usually hide their pain very well.
I know what’s in store for me. I’m not going to see any symptoms until she lays still in her cage, with no heartbeat. But no amount of mental preparation is going to help with the real thing.
Lucas is 8 years old. Chinchillas in captivity usually lasts about 10 years. So I am scared that I’ll lose her anytime.
She has been such a great part of my life. She’s like an old granny now. Sometimes I wonder if she is afraid that I will forget her when she’s gone so she makes alot of noises in her cage.
sigh, the things in life.
