Planning my 21st.

I’m so excited at all the possibilities that its such a big headache.

I want all my friends to be there, well at least those who are not fake and those who actually really want to celebrate it with me,let me share my joy with them and not some ‘event’ they HAVE to go, or being forced to go because they have to because honestly, you dont have to if you dont want to, I aint gonna force anyone because its an honour if I actually do invite you. I mean, come on, its someone’s special day, its an honour that they invite you to share the special moment.

So yes, its going to be a big celebration with my family and friends. It will be so fun, having all the people I love and trust in the same room,its going to be amazing. I know there will be tons of money spent, its going to take me tons of time to do careful planning but its all going to be worth it in the end.

love

me

THE TWILIGHT SAGA

I am behind time. I know I am.

So, I’ve decided to blog here still.

I’ve just caught with the twilight insanity just about time when I thought they should give this vampire thing a rest already.

But no, I’ve immersed myself, reading Eclipse and Breaking Dawn after catching new moon. All I can say is that as much as Bella’s spine broke while she gave birth to her vampire baby, my spine broke too, from staying in a position for too long while reading the book.

I think thats just something about me, once I find a good book, I’m not going anywhere. Fuzzy told me to bring it to the cruise I’m going to this weekend, NOT A CHANCE! I would totally just read it and do nothing.

So, about the book, I really really think Edward is psychotic. I dont know, maybe vampires really do these stuff, all the blaming himself thing, come on. It makes me want to claw at him, telling him to not be so silly but it does rake a thought in me.

Stephanie Meyer created somewhat an ”universally ideal guy” in Edward. Maybe not all girls but most. You see, we all secretly want a vampire boyfriend, we want something to do with the supernatural, something in it makes us feel powerful like you can do something others can’t.

A long time ago, we all wanted barbie’s boyfriend, “Ken”. “Ken” was the perfect pretty boy, blue eyes, blond hair and most of all Prince Charming. Times have changed, the society has changed, we don’t want the obvious winner, we want the underdog. Something more sinister, darker with an unspeakable secret, doesnt that thought makes it sound irresistably sexy already?

But is the Edward the perfect underdog? I dont think so, Edward happens to be a hybrid. Which is why people have said over and over. “HOT!” What is so hot about Edward?

He has a dark, sinister secret but yet he shines like diamond and has heart and eyes of gold. His love doesnt waver for eternity, which is the ideal thing all girls want. Yes, reality doesnt mix with eternity but its part of a perfect dream we all still have deep in our souls. We know about reality but we still harbour the hope of perfection. And in Meyer’s words, she created Edward as perfection. I watched the movies and read half the books and yes I can’t help but feel helpless at his unwavering, intense love.

Then Meyer creates another perfect option. Jacob. Ohmygod, I do not know if its just Taylor Lautner or generally I feel that Jacob is the exact opposite of Edward and totally imperfect but he just DRAWS ATTENTION. Jacob is everywhere, you cannot shut him out. And then annoyingly, he creeps into your heart and you cant help but adore him. Yes, allow me to think, adore him and imagine how warm and toasty Jacob’s hugs will be.

And then there’s the Cullen family, showing family ties that do not break and how adversity is childplay.

Maybe there is truly something to learn about the twilight saga after we’ve managed to look past Edward’s perfection and Jacob’s burning hotness and maybe the whole Quilete pack.

xoxo

me

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“Babe, your husbands have arrived”

What a cuteeeeeeeeeee message from SKF. I’m SO EXCITED FOR THEM TO COME IN THIS EVENING.

They are……………………

my makeup brushes from ELF studio and Everyday minerals. Yes, I am easily amused.

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Goodbye, my little friend.

Yup, Duke has gone to safer place now. I am sad yes, but I am glad that Duke no longer has to suffer anymore.

Duke is old, very very old. Old for a hamster. Duke is over 3 years old and naturally I knew someday I would have to let him go. Still, no one can ever prepare for a demise.

I woke up in the afternoon just like any other day and since its Sunday, its a routine to clean all cages. Then I saw Duke lying in his foodbowl. Typical of him, he sleeps on his food alot. But this time, it was diferent, he didnt seem to be moving and it looks like he’s stiff. I peered closely and felt my heart breaking. This tiny tiny thing was a part of my life for 3 years.

My cousin bought Duke along with Luke, both were brothers. They grew at an astonishing rate, Luke was ballooning. Soon, they were fighting tooth and nail so much I had to separate them. By then I didnt notice that Luke had a broken tooth and it caused him his life because he couldnt eat at all. Luke died at about a year old but Duke was fine.

Duke was the fiesty one, Luke was the funny big bellied one. I have to admit, I liked Luke alot better, because he was so clumsy and his belly was so big. Both couldnt stand being cuddled, so I didnt carry them alot but they were cute in their own way. Luke was a monster eater, he’d eat alot and stuff food all day long. Luke loved milk, so much that he’d finish 2 tablespoons of milk powder a day. Even as an adult, he’d drink so much milk and bang on his wired doors if he didnt have his daily dose. But Luke died early of starvation. he couldnt chew and milk couldnt sustain him for long.

Duke was the quiet but fiesty one, he was smaller compared to Luke and yes he didnt like to be held or cuddled. But, whenever I whistled to him, he’d dash out of his house like a puppy and wait at the door for a treat. Yes, this was the one thing I thought many hamsters wouldnt do. I thought I was imagining things. Whenever I went close and did a whistling thing, wherever he might be, he just do a mad dash to the door and wait patiently. Duke loved cheese, he was crazy for cheese.

But then Duke got old. Very old, he started shedding hair, he couldnt do any mad dash anymore, he became deaf, he couldnt respond to any sound at all. He’d crawl around the cage slowly, dragging his back legs so very often. He used to live in a 2-storey cage but it had a dangerous ledge which if he was young, it was okay so it was time to move to an elderly-friendly cage. His cage was the previous one Luke lived in and the one both of them grew up in. It was a big floor space and a  large wheel but Duke was too old to even get in the wheel.

But, you know how they say when something is going to die, they do weird stuff that you’d otherwise think they never did anymore. Duke was too old to run in the wheel but just last week, I saw him heave his old and bony body into the wheel and ran quite a while. When I went to school in the morning, I saw him come to the door and lift his front paws again.

Duke was a fiesty hamster with an attitude, but he was a good hamster, just like everyone’s darling.

I took Lucas out of the cage and together, we stared at Duke quietly. Lucas doesnt know what went on but she looks sad too. As I cleared the hamster cage, Lucas ran in her wheel which made some weeping noises. I dont know if I am imagining again but ever since I changed the cage for Lucas, she didnt like to run in the wheel because it made weeping noises but she was running on it after I showed Duke to her. Maybe its her way of showing sadness.

I put Duke in a box together with her hideout.

R.I.P Duke. I hope you meet Luke in hamster heaven.

 

love

me

Obsession much?

I know the answer that alot of people and I mean, ALOT of people would say

” HELL YES “

I know I’m addicted to collecting makeup, I’m fascinated by all the wonderful things makeup can do. I like seeing how it transforms a face.

Makeup can give a person confidence you know. When you look yourself in the mirror and see how pretty it can look,  it gives you that extra boost, that extra lift in believing that yes, everyone can be pretty and everyone should be pretty. It makes you feel good about yourself and it creates an outlook to people that yes, you’re all ready to take on the world.

Makeup is an art, how you want to express yourself, everyone have different ways of expression and makeup is just one part of it. Of course, its how you do it that garners all the bad and good reviews. Then again, its self-expression, why do you give a hoot about what others think?

And girls who strongly strongly dislike makeup or are discriminating people who like makeup, you’ll have to wear it someday too and dont be surprised that a little bit of makeup can actually be the key to your future ricebowl. Which employer wants to see eyes with blue/purple eyebags, and look like you’ve not been sleeping for the past one thousand years? When you go for the first impression interview, a bit of concealor and blush will save you.

Some people say “OH I LIKE TO GO AU NATUREL! “

Well, my friend, I didnt ask you to cake on makeup like an inch thick on your face and if you think a bare face with everything exposed is good for you, good luck, because

1) Makeup protects your face. It clogs pores yes, but what doesnt? YOUR ENVIRONMENT CLOGS YOUR PORES ANYWAY. When you step right out of your house and a car whooshes past you, heyho you have soot clogging all of your pore-friends. But if you have a layer of makeup, the soot DOES NOT get into your pores, it catches the soot and when you wipe your makeup off, the soot comes off with your foundation.

2) Makeup is sunscreen and I mean a literal screen on your face to shield from UV rays. We all know how important that is.

3) It makes you look awake. That I really dont need to explain.

 

If you’re a person who likes to wear light light light and healthy makeup, go mineral. Trust me, its better than nothing.

 

And for people who think that brushes are a waste of money, think again. I’m not saying you should own 300 but brushes are efficient tools alongside your fingers. The reason why sometimes you’re put off by makeup, because you apply too much with your fingers. Moral of the story : Use a brush if you’re heavy-handed.

Anyway, that aside, looking at colours makes me super di duper happy. I feel so lifted looking at different blush colours. That’s just me.

So next time, when you’re looking at makeup and you’re spending a longer time at the counter, GOOD FOR YOU. Take your time looking through everything before making a purchase, do your own research and make sure you know what you want, what you need. Ignore all the vainpot comments because those people are ignorant, impatient fools. However, we should not go overboard by letting it consume your life, there are other greater things in life.

That said, if you like makeup, indulge in it. If it makes you a happier person, do it.

By the way, there is a vainpot in everyone.

love

me

Omg, that is so bimbotic!

Think again the next time something like this gets out of your trap.

And yes, it has happened to me personally. First of all, do people really know what is a bimbo? Generally, its a termed coined to describe a woman who is physically attractive but unintelligent.

First of all, if you use this term as a joke or a tease, its fine. But if you start to label a person, you’d better start thinking again. How do you know this person is unintelligent? So you’re pretty damn intelligent?

Let me give you this ironic example which happens to be pretty common. There’s this girl in your class and you label her a ‘bimbo’, you’re saying she’s unintelligent and a no-brainer right?  Hello genius, that means you are too, because you’re in the same damn class.

Next, who are you to call her a bimbo? She, like you started out as a cute little baby with parents. If you label her a bimbo, you’re saying her mother, her grandmother was a bimbo because she has those genes! Would you want your mother to be called a bimbo? “Hey that bimbo mother of yours……”

DOES THAT SOUND GOOD TO YOU? NO? Then stop labelling.

And how would you REALLY know she is unintelligent?

Let me give you this perfect example.

This person, A was a pretty new friend. So then, you know like all get-to-know-you sessions, it was getting kind of chatty and fun. So then as you talk, A gets more and more amazed like he’s never seen any girl talk like that. Then he says “oh, you’re so innocent and naive.” And then when you become better friends, he says “oh you know, I thought you were a bimbo.”

And because of that, he thinks that I am so super duper easy to lie to. He cushions his words, thinking I am gonna suck it all up and go ooh ahh at his words. Well he gotta listen up really well because after I FOUND OUT ABOUT HIS STUFF, I FINALLY KNEW WHAT KIND OF PERSONALITY HE HAD AND I’M GOING TO WRITE IT DOWN.

He is so stereotypical, you’d feel like rolling your eyeballs.

Me, a bimbo? Wait till you listen about his story. So I found out that he has pretty strict parents, or parents that arent that easy to deal with, mmm, quite similar to mine, strict upbringing. Then I remembered how he’d tell me about a girl he fancies and all that, well to me, it seemed like she was all he could think of, she was what made up of all his thoughts, day and night.

Dont you think this person is so narrow-minded that apart from a GIRL, he has nothing else on his mind? His goals? His education? His family and pretty much his own life? I told my mum about it and she was like “doesnt he have any other things in his life he should think about? ” She is so damn right.

And he said I was a bimbo? Look who’s talking. I have like every other person, been through enough to know that there’s nothing more that I want then finishing my degree, get a great job and providing for my family. I have goals, I dont sit around thinking about boys all the time and neither should anyone, its an integral part yes, move on and think about greater things in life.

So he blabbed on about himself and all and he, like alot of other people, dont have good relationships with his family. Oh many, freaking times do I want to get this across? If you FREAKING KNOW that you’re not good with your family, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. I can’t say I had a good relationship with my family all the time ever since I was young. I had rebellious times too, when I was say, 14? But now, I know how important family is to me, and I make effort to build good ties. Its not easy, but you still have to do it. I am still gaining trust and I am still learning. And I am only 20, he’s much older mind you. But still so childish. Grow up, A.

Well, he can go on thinking that I’m still bimbotic to him, because we know the big truth dont we?

 

Good luck A.

2009

I miss all the “studying” times. Like seriously, looking back on pictures, I do miss them.

 

I MISS MY GREY HOODIE, I still curse the person who stole it.

 

 

 

 

I had and left my first job.

 

And the girls continue to grow

I became a moose.

and we continued to grow

 

 

And i found love,

 

And I continue to grow with him,

and we all will live happily ever after.

Fuzzy is witty. I like.

FAHZEEELEEENN

♥ says:

hmmm

hahaha i dont know to say yes or nocheryl says:

just say yes, dont challenge logic

FAHZEEELEEENN

♥ says:

hahaha but in a way it’s not hahacheryl says:

hahaha

FAHZEEELEEENN

♥ says:

so what makes you want to grace us with your awesome presence on msn hahahacheryl says:

hahaha

the power of boredom my dear fahzeeleen

by the way, i like your witty humour

it cracks me up

Fatty Fatty Bom Bom

I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT. YES.

Surprisingly, its damn fun when you do it in a group with all the fatty fatty bom boms and challenge each other to play stupid games on the treadmill. Like increase your gradient to an obscene level then walking on it hands-free and possibly dance on it as if it was a catwalk.

Its damn fun and it burns calories, I’m still obsessed with finding out about how to increase my metabolism and trying not to be jealous when SKF has SKYHIGH METABOLISM and working out is quite fun but I dont want it to consume my life and yes, I still eat,if you’re wondering.

EATING IS MY LIFE!

So, SKF and I are getting even better, well we’ve had certain bumps when we rubbed each other the wrong way (pun unintended) but we’re learning more and more, giving more and more, I’m less bratty, less princessy, eh I wasnt to start with okay? but you get the point, changed for the better. All the inner frustration from schoolwork has gone into my absolute fat-blaster, Muay Thai. Yeah people are not comfortable with girls learning Muay Thai, whats the deal? I’m not giving that up soon, so deal with it. And no, I dont do Muay Thai on SKF, i’m completely gentle.

Other than that, life is pretty good!

On another note, just for extras, i’m beginning to like SKF again, as in those you know, first fleeting affections-ish. Weird I know but its a secret of mine, nobody should know.

shhh.

love

me

PS: I RECEIVED THE BODY SHOP STAR LOYALTY CARD, WILL TALK ABOUT IT MORE MAYBE NEXT TIME. THANK YOU BODYSHOP!